This is my first time being a blogger. My two best friends are doing it so of course I thought I would follow, such a follower;)! I am pregnant for the second time around and to be honest I have had bad attittude about it from the beginning. When we found out my little girl was only 9 months and I not only thought my body was going to fall apart but that I ruined my daughters life for sure. I thought I would never have enough time with just her and I. I thought she would be so jealous of our new edition and that I would be the first one to hurt her feelings and I couldn't stand the thought. Right now she is a Mama's girl and I dreaded the thought of her eventually finding her way to her Daddy instead, which is fine but I'm just that selfish with her. Then I started to get real sick. I thought see this is for sure God's way of telling me I'm a big nut and this is what I get! I was getting sick about 5-10 times a day and dealing with the worst headaches I had ever experienced, the Dr. believe it to be migrains. I always wanted three children but started to second guess my "wants" and started thinking more of my "needs". All of my patience (what little I have) and my normal happy bubbly personality was getting tossed straight out the window. And then to top it off my little girl was crying one night and I ran in to her nursery to see if she was okay and I thought I had touched a burning stove. She was running a 103 temp and was pulling at her right ear. I felt aweful. I laid with her in my recliner for the entire night and she slept so peacefuly...when morning came I remembered every single reason why I wanted to be a Mom. She looked up at me with the most gorgeous blue eyes I'd ever seen and smiled. I of course being the sap I am bawled. She was so sick but yet managed to smile at me and it changed my perspective on everything. I couldn't wait to have BOTH my Girls in my arms one day. I started getting excited and showing my first born my tummy as it grew, which she thinks my belly button is a mystery, little does she know she is the one who did the damage!! haha!
My husband is the best support I have ever known. He has thought our special news was so exciting and great. I just wish I had is calm and his patience but that is why he is my soul mate and everything I have ever wanted and needed in a husband. To top it off of my own personal guardian angel we recently recieved some news that I have a annoying condition called Chiari Malformation. It is a problem with an opening in my skull that causes a lot of pressure on my brain and thus making my brain want to protrude out into my spine. Most are worried but to me, I'm thrilled my headaches and sickness had nothing to do with my new arrival on the way. I now knew God was not giving me what I deserved for being irresponsible. He was telling me I had a gift coming. And I was supposed to be a Mommy and that I had more strength than I gave myself credit for. I feel like I have a thousand pounds lifted off my shoulders and I am ready for what ever is next. Our first little one is Kayden Lynn and our next will be Emma Nichole. I am officially 24 weeks.
